Am I FINALLY getting to turn the page on this thing???

What I'm talking about is depression. I have been battling this beast ever since I was a teen maybe even before that and I think ( 20 years later ) I am finally getting better! No one knows what it feels like unless they themselves have had to wake one morning with the feeling that their family and friends would be better off without them! I have felt that way many many times and unfortunately it has taken this long for me to realize that it is not true. I have had many people say things like, let it go, or get over it, or be thankful you have both your legs. Yeah not so easy to do those things when you have this beast SCREAMING in your head all day!
 I have a great support system for which I am very thankful, but it's not easy admitting that you feel this way. I felt alone and very shameful, I was in a lot of pain but no one could help me! I had to help myself and just here recently I have been making awesome progress in that department. It is my sincerest prayer that you my readers who ever you may be, can join me on this journey and maybe just maybe you'll be able to take away from this some insight and be able to use it against your beasts.
I am lookimg forward to sharing with you and feel free to do the same. I don't know if anyone else will even read this and if they don't, well, then that is fine. This my daily journal, I feel that this is an awesome way to end my day! Thank you!