Ah who cares...

For those few of you who read my blog, sorry its been awhile. I once again have been having some issues with my medication. Its either been the wrong medication or the wrong dosage. But we are still working on getting it right I am not giving up on it. I've been hurting a lot lately, emotionally. I can't explain it, there is not one thing that has actually happened to make me feel down I just do. I wish I COULD explain, believe me I do. I've been wondering a lot lately how people who cut or burn themselves could do it, and I wonder if I could and if would lessen my emotional pain? But then I say "Uh no I'm not that stupid"! I realize now that my choice of self punishment is to overeat. I tend to do it a lot when I am having one of my down days. It's a vicious cycle I know! I AM trying to change... that is why I am seeing a therapist. I ask for your prayers though! Today was a mighty low day and I just need the Lord to place his loving arms around me and lift me up! Thank you friends I love you all very much and am very thankful to God for you!